I want to say this to soooo many people....

(describing a character)"his deliberate placidity of expression masked a very emotional temperament. In this he recognised a weakness......He kept over himself unceasing watch, as though a dangerous prisoner were in his heart ever on the alert to break his chains. He felt himself the slave of a vivid imagination, and realised it stood against the enjoyment of life which is his philosophy told him was the only end of existence. Yet his passions were of the mind rather than of the body, and his spirit urged his flesh constantly to courses wherein it found nothing but disillusion."

(gentle conversation)"People never realise that they have only one life, and mistakes are irreparable. They play with it as though it were a game of chess in which they could try this move and that, and when they get into a muddle, sweep the board clear and begin again.But life is a game of chess in which one is always beaten. Death sits on the other side of the board, and for every move he has a counter move"

(stern advice to someone whose confessions wl make someone else miserable)"There are three good maxims in the conduct of life " never sin; but if u sin, never repent; and above all, if u repent, never, never confess"

- The Merry Go Round, by Somerset Maughaum

Bits n pieces of angst - lyrics from Maroon 5

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attackS
ay goodbye and just fly away
When you comebackI have some things to say
(Sweetest Goodbye)

Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
(Through with you)

You do not know how much this hurts me
To say these things that I don't want to say
But have to say them anyway
I would do anything to end your suffering
But you would rather walk away

When you answer the door pick up the phone
You wont find me cause I'm not coming home
(Not coming home)

Spirit

Dirge without Music

I am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground.
So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind:Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely.
CrownedWith lilies and with laurel they go; but I am not resigned.
Lovers and thinkers, into the earth with you.
Be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.
A fragment of what you felt, of what you knew,
A formula, a phrase remains,--but the best is lost.
The answers quick and keen, the honest look, the laughter, the love, --
They are gone. They are gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled
Is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not approve.
More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the world.
Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave,
Gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;
Quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave.
I know. But I do not approve. And I am not resigned.

- Edna St. Vincent Millay

Connections of the soul

"I speak to you as I would speak to any person who possesses my true thoughts. For my true thoughts have spent more time in your company than in anyone else’s the past few weeks. Where my thoughts are, there am I in truth"

- Possession (movie), letter of forbidden love